I got an email a few days ago that Trevor Borden, aka 84fierotrevor here on PFF took his own life little over a month ago. I haven't been able to verify it although if I go to his MySpace page, his guestbook is filled with RIPs...
Anyone heard anything from/about him?
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Posts: 16203 From: Free America! Registered: Dec 2003
yesterday i went over to trevors house and him and his mom had got in a fight and he is the same way i am i dont want to be bothered when im mad or when i just got in a argument so when i got there i knocked on his door and he didnt answer so i went down stairs watched some tv for a bit then went back up stairs and knocked again he didnt answer so i tried to push the door open and there was a couch and other things behind it. we had to grab the ladder and i had to climb in thru his bathroom window and find him in his closet, he had hung himself. i dont know how or what to do to deal with this he was my bestfriend and was always there for me no matter what. All of you that really know me and are true friends know how long i had been friends with him and how much he ment to me.
It's sad to hear. Over on RFT, he made a lot of posts about his girlfriend leaving him and it seemed that he really took it hard. He started posting about excessive marijuana use and problems with the law. I can't say I'm all too surprised. It's unfortunate. I lost two of my closest friends to suicide and I have never been the same since.
I don't know what to say. For a long time, Trevor used to come online via MSN, and we would chat. It seems he had a terrible childhood, with a very disfunctional family. He was a brave lad, and often misunderstood because his education was very poor. He tried very hard to succeed in his own way, setting up Mall Stands and selling sunglasses etc. He came in for some hard words here at one time, and I felt sorry for him, although he didn't ask for pity ever. My epitaph for a sad and mixed-up kid, through very little fault of his own, would be: " I did the best I could, with the limited preparation for life that was afforded me, by those who should have done better.I tried, and that was all I could do. " The last time we ever chatted was when he was getting ready to move across country to try to set up another stall. I wish we could still have been in touch. Maybe I couldn't have done much, but I would have liked to be given the chance just to talk to him, and try to help him through this sad time. RIP Trevor..I'm so sad you had to take your own life..the guilt lies with others..you did your best. Nick
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kyunderdawg Member
Posts: 4373 From: Bowling Green, KY. USA Registered: Aug 2008
I am speechless. We had a few good conversations via PM's and he gave me ecouragement on getting healthy and losing weight. He will be missed. I just can't believe it. Man, oh man......[ shakes head ]
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Dennis LaGrua Member
Posts: 15455 From: Hillsborough, NJ U.S.A. Registered: May 2000
The LaGrua family would like to express their heartfelt sympathy to the Borden family for their tragic loss. My Trevor rest in peace and enjoy the tranquility with the good Lord that he sought in life. It is news like this that remind us that life is only a journey and not a destination.
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Cheever3000 Member
Posts: 12400 From: The Man from Tallahassee Registered: Aug 2001
Did a search and found where he posted about his g/f leaving in January 2008, and yeah he was pretty broken up about it. Doesn't mean it had anything to do with this, of course.
I'm real sorry to hear about it. My heart goes to the family & friends.
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IMSA GT Member
Posts: 10482 From: California Registered: Aug 2007
That was too funny!!! At first I was like "oh, man, he's actually coming on here confessing to street racing and showing pics of the accident." You got me on that one, Trevor. RIP brother. I'll have to do a search on him and read up on him.
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Thats rough dude. its sad what a woman can do to a guy. i never talked to the dude but he sounded like a good guy. my condolences to him and his family.
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WhiteDevil88 Member
Posts: 8518 From: Coastal California Registered: Mar 2007
I really didn't need to see this. I knew eventually someone from this forum would go like that, I figured it would be me. Trev was way too young. I am stunned.
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Patrick Member
Posts: 37641 From: Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada Registered: Apr 99
I'm speechless. Trevor and I crossed paths in many threads here over the years.
He was a complicated young man. I'm so sorry to find out he couldn't take it anymore.
I know Trevor loved his dog.
Here's a picture of Trevor and Indy in happier times.
Rest in peace, Trevor.
[EDIT] I found this at Trevor's myspace pageafter I had posted the above. So sad...
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Heroes
My dog Indy, I dunno how he wakes up every day in a good mood. I wish I could be as gangster as him. If something happens to me Take care of INDY don't adopt him out like he is an item on craigslist, He is the only thing left that matters to me.. and play "Leave out all the rest" at my memorial.
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Posts: 5486 From: Charleston SC Registered: Dec 2001
Stunned - just does not sum it up for me. I had a friend, and Fiero fanatic, a forum member that did not post here much decide he needed to take his life about two weeks ago. My condolences to Trevor's friends and family. I can understand the heartache too well.
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motoracer838 Member
Posts: 3751 From: Edgewater Co. USofA Registered: Jan 2006
While many of us have trouble coping with the suicide of a young man in the prime of his life; it should be remembered that life is not easy but no one ever promised us that it would be. At this point we can only pray that the good Lord bring comfort to his familty and grant Trevor the peace that he so missed in life.
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Patrick Member
Posts: 37641 From: Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada Registered: Apr 99
Instead of hearing about me, why not hear a story that may keep you from making the same mistake as the person in this story. We will call him Clever, because he used to think he was so..
Clever had a life, he had a girlfriend and he had the same dreams, goals and asperations as anyone. He thought he knew what he wanted out of life and wasn't going to let anything stand in his way, his greed for material possesions only fueld his strive to attain everything he had ever dreamed about! Nothing was going to stop clever. clever took many people for granite expessily the one closest to him. he didn't stop to ever relize what he already had because he was so busy and full of himself and his dreams, he steped on people, took advantage of people and alot worse to stop at nothing to attain what he thought was so imortant in life and evenutaly he attained it. what he didn't relize was that he had no idea what he was doing. >>>Fast forword>>>>
"LIFE NUMBER TWO"
It was two late.. He couldn't back the things he had done no matter how bad he wanted too. Clever had already done so much emotional erreversible damage that no one wanted anything to do with him and rightly so.. as the days went by clever relized more and more, the people he hurt and the damage he had done. standing alone without the one foundation that had been his other half he couldn't even stand anymore. He relized it wasn't the matrial possesions he had thought mattered to him hiw whole life, he was suddenly willing to give up everything he owned or had ever wanted just to get back the one most important thing in his life. but alas it was to late. clever had already done so much horrible damage there was no taking it back. He had lost the one thing that mattered without relizing it while trying to get the things he thought really mattered to him. now clever lays alone in his bed at night, hopeing his dog doesn't miss her as much as he does. now he takes one day at a time trying to live the life he wanted so much he stoped at nothing to get. the things that used to make him happy don't anymore, because he chased away the one person he really wanted to share it all with. He was told as time went on it would get better but it never has, in fact it has goten worse, as every day that goes by he relizes more and more how his second life will never equal 1 percent of the joy he would have got from focusing on who was important in life number one. so now clever goes thru each day reminded daily of how he irreversibly screwed up his life, and how life number two will always be a regret because he ruined life number one, and has to live daily with the memories of how he treated life number one and the person that mattered most to him in it. knowing he once shared the most important thing in the world once with the best person in the world. and instead of doing it right and living a happy life being a happy person. clever wakes up every day with no bedbugs in his bed, a result of his own doing he hates himself a little more, and then questions weather he really wants to keep trying at life..
Don't be Clever, There is not a second in the day he doesn't wish he could take back everything he had done and go back in time and try and do life number one the right way this time.
Don't take anyone for granite. don't ever forget to tell someone you love them. You may lose them and make the biggest mistake of your life...
Thanks for finding that Patrick. I am in tears now for that poor lad. I hope somebody is caring for his dog, who has now lost BOTH the main people in his life. He loved that dog so much. Trevor must have been in such torment to leave his dog alone for ever. The things Trevor wrote there have always been the way I try to be. I get mad, and then get sad for having allowed myself to waste that energy. His words make sense, more so from somebody who has actually been there, than somebody who hasn't, and just guesses. i know only too well, at times over the last few years, that I didn't think I was worthy of my life, and if it hadn't have been for my Wife and dogs, I might well have gone down the same route. Thankfully, I had been blessed with that which Trevor had lost. Somebody to live for, other than myself. Thanks for the chats we had, Trevor. never actually met you, and for that, I feel a loss. And it was nice to see that 84Bill was just as kind and soft-hearted as I know him to be. God Bless Nick
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I don't know what happens to personal Myspace pages after someone passes away, so just in case they get pulled, here's Trevor's "About me".
Instead of hearing about me, why not hear a story that may keep you from making the same mistake as the person in this story. We will call him Clever, because he used to think he was so..
Clever had a life, he had a girlfriend and he had the same dreams, goals and asperations as anyone. He thought he knew what he wanted out of life and wasn't going to let anything stand in his way, his greed for material possesions only fueld his strive to attain everything he had ever dreamed about! Nothing was going to stop clever. clever took many people for granite expessily the one closest to him. he didn't stop to ever relize what he already had because he was so busy and full of himself and his dreams, he steped on people, took advantage of people and alot worse to stop at nothing to attain what he thought was so imortant in life and evenutaly he attained it. what he didn't relize was that he had no idea what he was doing. >>>Fast forword>>>>
"LIFE NUMBER TWO"
It was two late.. He couldn't back the things he had done no matter how bad he wanted too. Clever had already done so much emotional erreversible damage that no one wanted anything to do with him and rightly so.. as the days went by clever relized more and more, the people he hurt and the damage he had done. standing alone without the one foundation that had been his other half he couldn't even stand anymore. He relized it wasn't the matrial possesions he had thought mattered to him hiw whole life, he was suddenly willing to give up everything he owned or had ever wanted just to get back the one most important thing in his life. but alas it was to late. clever had already done so much horrible damage there was no taking it back. He had lost the one thing that mattered without relizing it while trying to get the things he thought really mattered to him. now clever lays alone in his bed at night, hopeing his dog doesn't miss her as much as he does. now he takes one day at a time trying to live the life he wanted so much he stoped at nothing to get. the things that used to make him happy don't anymore, because he chased away the one person he really wanted to share it all with. He was told as time went on it would get better but it never has, in fact it has goten worse, as every day that goes by he relizes more and more how his second life will never equal 1 percent of the joy he would have got from focusing on who was important in life number one. so now clever goes thru each day reminded daily of how he irreversibly screwed up his life, and how life number two will always be a regret because he ruined life number one, and has to live daily with the memories of how he treated life number one and the person that mattered most to him in it. knowing he once shared the most important thing in the world once with the best person in the world. and instead of doing it right and living a happy life being a happy person. clever wakes up every day with no bedbugs in his bed, a result of his own doing he hates himself a little more, and then questions weather he really wants to keep trying at life..
Don't be Clever, There is not a second in the day he doesn't wish he could take back everything he had done and go back in time and try and do life number one the right way this time.
Don't take anyone for granite. don't ever forget to tell someone you love them. You may lose them and make the biggest mistake of your life...
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madcurl Member
Posts: 21401 From: In a Van down by the Kern River Registered: Jul 2003
Even though I have never met Trevor in person, this news has hurt and saddened me. I will never understand why someone would feel life is so bad that they had to end it. May he rest in peace.
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kwagner Member
Posts: 4258 From: Pittsburgh, PA Registered: Apr 2005
Wow, man this is so sad. I remember reading through his myspace page about a year ago. He seemed like a guy that if he lived in the same town as me we would hang out all the time.
May Trevor find peace in death that he was unable to find in life. Once again he is another fallen friend that I will be looking for on the other side when I cross over.
-Chris
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Fiero Thomas Member
Posts: 4669 From: Round Lake Beach, IL Registered: Jul 2005
Trevor you posted some great stuff and seamed like a stand up guy. I will never forget the hotwheel stunt you did. I was laughing so hard with tears. My condolances to your family
Is there a way that we could send a card to his family from PFF?
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OKflyboy Member
Posts: 6607 From: Not too far from Mexico Registered: Nov 2004
Since we're posting favorite threads... I frequently think about the one that he started, regarding the exploration of the abandoned military installation (or whatever it was) up in the mountains. https://www.fiero.nl/forum/A...070315-6-045428.html
That was one of the most fascinating things I've ever read (in a geek sort of way.) Hope nobody minds me remembering.
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OKflyboy Member
Posts: 6607 From: Not too far from Mexico Registered: Nov 2004
Since we're posting favorite threads... I frequently think about the one that he started, regarding the exploration of the abandoned military installation (or whatever it was) up in the mountains. https://www.fiero.nl/forum/A...070315-6-045428.html
That was one of the most fascinating things I've ever read (in a geek sort of way.) Hope nobody minds me remembering.
I remember that! And when he didn't get back on PFF right away we were afraid some MIBs might have caught him...
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California Kid Member
Posts: 9541 From: Metro Detroit Area, Michigan Registered: Jul 2001