I dont know why. but after 43 years I must accept what I am.... I am a failure.

I'm sorry because so many depend on me to be somthing.... but I am a nothing.. and I apologize for that.

I did the best I could but apparently my best just is not good enough.... but thank you for the opportunity to try... I have failed... and I am sorry.


Good night.

Bill

fail·ure (fāl'yər) Pronunciation Key
n. 1. The condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends:

what was the desired end?

Welcome. As the President and CEO of Failure, Inc, I humbly welcome you to the fold. In the room to your left is the buffet. You'll notice we have metal spoons only (no need for us to stab/cut each other and metal won't break). Just down the hall is my office. I'd invite you in but I lost my key last week. Sorry about that. My secretary, Joan is out sick today so we can't really give you your health care forms but hopefully we can rectify that soon. The bathroom plumbing is broken, too. We called the plumbing department but, since the plumber works for us, he just made the problem worse. We have a call out to a real plumber. Just so you know, your pay may vary from week to week as we are now a non profit company. (We didn't start out that way, but since we are all failures...you know how it goes.) I'll have to finish the tour later. I just realized that I'm about 20 minutes late for my IRS audit.

Well, at least I lived long enough to hear him admit it. Too bad I'm right behind him, though.

What is wrong? What have you failed at?

whats wrong dude?

quote Originally posted by ryan.hess: what was the desired end?

It is what I wish for... the end... but alas.. I am denied... as usual.

Is this in referance to you needing a job?

quote Originally posted by 88_Fiero_2M4: Is this in referance to you needing a job?

I had one and I lost it... but it wasnt a "job", it was my life and my future... now it is gone...

Theres always Truck driving For those of us who dont have a life lol

Times are tough, bitches.

Keep hustling. Pimps don't commit suicide.

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To quote an old saying....when one door closes, another one opens, Bill. Failure is not an end, just the realization that the path you're on isn't the right one for you. In one way or another, we're ALL failures at something. It doesn't mean that we have no worth...it just means that we need to rethink what we're doing, and where we're going. Look for the open door....it IS there, somewhere.

quote Originally posted by WhiteDevil88: Times are tough, bitches. Keep hustling. Pimps don't commit suicide.

Thats 51% of my problem.... I cant pull the trigger hecasue I dont want to live this mother ****ing bullshit hellish crap again...

Sucks to be me eh? I'm such a pussy I cant even stand to be sitting in my own skin. I ****ing hate life with a passion !!! I drove without a seat belt on for the first time in YEARS I hate this ****ing life so much!!! In fact I dont think I''l ever put one on again.

quote Originally posted by litespd: To quote an old saying....when one door closes, another one opens, Bill. Failure is not an end, just the realization that the path you're on isn't the right one for you. In one way or another, we're ALL failures at something. It doesn't mean that we have no worth...it just means that we need to rethink what we're doing, and where we're going. Look for the open door....it IS there, somewhere.

I've hear that bullsith since my father fired me when I was 17 years old working as a line serviceman at Bridegport Airport in NJ... I sure as **** dont belive that bullshit now that I'm 43.

It's all a ****ing LIE!

You will find another job Bill--there's no doubt about that. May not be "the perfect job" but nowdays, none are. Re-invent yourself if you have to, but move on with your life. Adapt.
If you give up--the terrorists win?

If it's any comfort--and it probably isn't--there's gonna be a whole lot of us in the same predictament before very long.

quote Originally posted by Wichita:

OHHH the PAIN!!!! the ****ING PAIN!!!!

You need medication, or you need to put your affairs in order and check out properly. Don't leave a mess behind that others will have to deal with. Make sure you leave behind a note that will absolve the innocent of blame, and enough money to cremate your remains. I can understand the pain, I just can't understand being so selfish as forcing survivors to deal with your **** . Get a will.

It's a good thing I was never allowed to own a gun... Becasue I'd I SWAER to GOD!!! you ****ing bastard!!!!!! I'd ****ing use it!!!

quote Originally posted by 84Bill: Thats 51% of my problem.... I cant pull the trigger hecasue I dont want to live this mother ****ing bullshit hellish crap again... Sucks to be me eh? I'm such a pussy I cant even stand to be sitting in my own skin. I ****ing hate life with a passion !!! I drove without a seat belt on for the first time in YEARS I hate this ****ing life so much!!! In fact I dont think I''l ever put one on again.

dude to tell you the truth i know what your talkin aboutbut heres one thing to think about and this always kept me goin and put some serious thought into this statement

"when your at the bottom all you can do is climb back up the only problem is how your gona do it" i was down in the dumps about my ex girlfriend first girl i ever fell in love with and i mean head over heals than she broke up with me for some other guy, and i was a train wreck for years after that and somewhat i still am cuz i do still think about her every now and than. but i just found myself a new girl thats better than my ex could have ever been now i dont know what the deal is with you but whatever is find somthin that takes your mind off of it. my fiero did that for me before i met this girl i kinda owe my fiero my life cuz i got me out of the rut i was in and tell you the truth as far as right now im standin on a concrete poast and forgettin all about my problems in the past cuz the past is the past and thats where it should stay.

quote Originally posted by WhiteDevil88: I just can't understand being so selfish as forcing survivors to deal with your **** . Get a will.

You are right which is WHY^ I havent ****ing killed my stupid ass yet today!

**** THE ****ING WORLD!

FYI, people who are in a lot of emotional pain really don't appreciate people trying to compare and out do their pain. I have no idea wht has Bill upset, and quite frankly it is a selfish move to put posts on an internet forum about finishing it. We are not responsible to deal with your stuff, Bill. Get professional help.

quote Originally posted by 84Bill: YA... real bad dude... I feel for ya... Jsut try to explain to your son three days after he finally contacts you and you make amends and plans to have him come back into your life... plans toi get a p[lace to live OTHER THAN MY ****ING PARENTS then have it all go to ****ing hell in less tha 2 minutes and explain WHY YOU ARE A FUCLKING FAILURE TO HIM AGAIN!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!! FUK THIS ****ING **** !!!!!!!!!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel ya heres some more advice on that part talk it out with him. from what i got of that you think that your son thinks that you failed him. i can almost gaurentee he dosent think that im only 21 and i still live with my dad my paresnt split up when i was 12 my mom and i dont see eye to eye on anything and she was a very miniplitive woman turning me aganst my dad when i was young and every thing and me and my dad dident see nor talk to eachother for almost 5 years, and the thought never crossed my mind that he failed me and the proof of that is hes all i got as a family now besids for my lil bro n sis without him id probabley be out in the city dealin to make ends meet or worse dead. pretty much what im sayin is i dont know how old your son is but im geussin hes around my age and even though how mad we get at our parents and even though how much we wana throw somthin at them a son never thinks that his father has failed him cuz without ya he wouldent be here so just try talking it out with him i gaurentee you hes gona understand

Bill, sometimes success in life is just surviving what life deals you. I don't think anyone here is capable of giving you real, long term help. You need to seek some professional therapy. If you are unwilling to do it for yourself then think about your kids and parents. You can't be a failure until you at least try to help yourself.

Jeremy

Success is figuring out what isnt working and STOP doing it.

Bill,
I never thought i would be where i am.

call me if you want to compare notes.
816-405-9107
buddy

EDIT that's my cell number.
you can call any time.
i'll answer it any time of day. unless i'm under a car and can't reach it. (or wiping my butt).
If i am under a car, just leave a message and i'll call back soon

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Man, don't lose it now.

Winter is coming and its my time to be all depressed.

Really it will get better. It always does, weather you expect it or not, it's just hard to see that right now. Call a friend, or even a hotline. Nobody needs to do anything irrational.

Brad

quote Originally posted by WhiteDevil88: ...or you need to put your affairs in order and check out properly. Don't leave a mess behind that others will have to deal with. Make sure you leave behind a note that will absolve the innocent of blame, and enough money to cremate your remains. I can understand the pain, I just can't understand being so selfish as forcing survivors to deal with your **** . Get a will.

You know, you're a callous f**ker. I've always tried to have your back, but this is stupid of you. Have some heart.

I wished on several occassions that the powers that be would just let the pain end, but something ALWAYS comes along and changes my outlook. I'm a couple of years older than you, pretty close to the same age, and I wish I had figured it out a long time ago! Relax, nothing is worth getting bent out of shape about (I still get pissed every now and then but I take a breath and think about whether it really matters), you can't make everyone happy, hell sometimes you can't make anyone happy, find peace within yourself. Live for the moment, some good ones are bound to come around. All things in moderation, to much of a good thing can turn bad (alcohol, drugs, women, cars, etc!). If you are a failure then I am your god! I look back and wouldn't change a thing though, there were some really good times in the rollercoaster ride and I'm not going to get off of the ride till I have to.
Life sucks most of the time, even folks that appear to have it ALL have their moments of doubt, it's those brief moments of bliss tha make it worth continueing. You never know when they will happen and if you checkout early you may miss the best one yet!

I have my issues with depression, I'm broke, have been for a few years now, and when I say broke I mean no job, no money in the bank, credit cards maxed out, bill collectors on my ass, living in my mothers garage, kids don't call anymore, health is questionable, I'm thinkin' of selling my guitar, could go on and on listing all the crap that sucks! But why bother, I'm still here, tomorrow may or may not present an opportunity, might as well stick around to find out.

Besides, what would I do for entertainment if you checked out!

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Dealing with failure is easy: work hard to improve. Success is also easy to handle: you've solved the wrong problem, work hard to improve.

You know Bill, you said you just got in touch with your son again. With what you kinda wrote and what I'm reading in between the lines, you lost your job and you lost hope of having a place of your own. That does not mean you can be with your son again. Why can't he come visit you at your parents??? You being with him has nothing to do with you being in your own place. Being a dad isn't about having a place of your own. Being a dad is being there for him to talk to, to listen to, to do things with. You do have a roof over your head, I'm sure your parents would love to see their grandson again too!! If you off yourself, how is your son going to take that???

Chin up Bill, call him back, I'm sure he called because he wanted to be with you, get to know you. It didn't matter to him if he was in a fancy place, he wanted to visit his dad. Be a dad, invite him to stay with you for a bit. I'm sure your mom and dad won't mind. Even if he has to sleep on the couch, he will know you wanted him to be with him no matter what.

Now stop it or I'm going to have to come down there and bitchslap the crap out of you. It's never too late to for a relationship with your son....you just have to be willing to do it. Everything doesn't have to be in place to have that. It's you (his dad) he wants to get to know, not your job or lack there of!!!

If you want to talk or type things out, my pm's are always open.

Hang in there Bill!!

It is not over yet dude.

quote Originally posted by fierogirls-mom: If you want to talk or type things out, my pm's are always open.

Mine too.

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nevermind.

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Ug - I hate days like that

would say "burn a fatty" - but not sure if that'll help or hinder....

Bill, you ........oh, I forgot my secret pass word.
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You failed at being a failure. Success is measured one failure at a time. You are the dude that gave your last dollar away when you did not have a job.
Failure is just a measure of.......? Your expectations? The expectations of someone else? The goal lines always move for everybody. You do not need a touchdown, just a first down.
One step at a time. Come up with a play, a plan.

quote Originally posted by 84Bill: .... but thank you for the opportunity to try...

Who took away that opportunity, ? The only way that you can fail is if you give up.
Do you not have anything to offer your son? You need to look at the big picture. You do have much to offer. Things that he needs.
Bill, honest ! My daughter just came back into my life. She is 19. She needs me. Almost as much as I need her.
210 471 1192, my cell #. PM me your number and I will use my nickle.

quote Originally posted by 2.5:

The most appropriate thing I can think of. Whether we agree on anything or not is not the issue, this is one thing that will always stand true. If you don't stand tall for your family and beliefs, you will fail in everyone's eyes. Is that what you want as your legacy? I sincerely doubt it. You're stronger than you think. Pick up that load and march on. You are no where near the end of your journey.

Ron