i don't recall if i ever spoke to him, but R.I.P Trevor.

may you find the peace and fiero that you have always wanted.

Wow, seriously...there are only so many Trevors in this world (myself included), and it always sucks when we lose one. This is just...wow. Anybody ever seen the movie "The Chumscrubber"? You'd know why I ask that if you've seen it.

Using the forum's search function, I've been reading over a lot of threads that both Trevor and I had posted in over the years. I wanted to find one that touched me personally more than any of the others.

I found it... I definitely found it.

Rest in peace KITTY 05/05/1987 to 10/29/2006

quote Originally posted by 84fierotrevor: Rest in peace my little buddy, I will never forget being 4 years old and putting your little kitten body in a left over easterbaskit, watching your little head pop up to bat at stuff that walked bye. I will never forget the christmas morning when I was ten and woke up to already unwraped christmas gifts during the night because you felt the bow's on them where a threat to the safty of are home. and promptly tore them to shreds. i won't ever forget the countless times when i was young, I would do somthing wrong and get in trouble by my mom and be crying in a corner and you would wake up from your cat nap, and come over and rub on me, to let me know that I still had your love no matter how much I ****ed up in life. I won't ever forget when we had a tsunami warning in 1995 and I had to put u in a cage with my mom and drive inland and up hills, even tho a tsunami never hit. I won't forget how you where on my bed, as I watched two planes crash into towers, and the world change forever that day. I won't ever forget how I feel asleep one afternoon and woke up with your head laying cradled in my warm hand. i know im over 1000 miles away when you passed, and that i never even got to say goodbye, and for that I am deeply sorry, I wish I could have been there cradling ur head as you fell asleep for the very last time, But I was so far away. you had always been there for me in my time of need, and for your last, I wasn't. and I am so sorry for that. so even tho your already gone, I just wanna say. goodbye.

quote Originally posted by Patrick: Using the forum's search function, I've been reading over a lot of threads that both Trevor and I had posted in over the years. I wanted to find one that touched me personally more than any of the others. I found it... I definitely found it. Rest in peace KITTY 05/05/1987 to 10/29/2006

Awe Patrick!

Why did you go and post that for?

I must have allergies or something.

quote Originally posted by pokeyfiero: I must have allergies or something.

Yeah, you and me both, Pokey.

I must have them too.. I didn't know they were contagious. Touching story, RIP Trevor.

UGH!!! RIP

Very sad.

Very sad that anyone feels they have to take their own life. My sympathies go out to his surviving family and friends.

Ron

WOW we used to talk on aol all the time, lost track the last year or so, i felt like i knew him pretty well
verry sad to hear he moved arround alot and tried to do good for himself
his GF did leave him and he had a hard time with it and did turn to drugs, and lost a really good friend in a motorcycle accident a yearish ago aswell

quote Originally posted by Patrick: Yeah, you and me both, Pokey.

Add me to the list.

Damn, that is very touching stuff. Very sad.

I recieved the sad news today by email from someone here.
I thank that person very much.

I am always very sad to think that a young man can be used up so quickly.
The pain he endured to bring him to this point must have been massive.
I find myself broken at the thought of it.
I wished I could have helped.

May he truely find the peace he so desparatly desired.

I don't know what to say...

Sometimes I feel like the kids on here are mine...I wish he would have reached out.

So, so sad.

So sad, so sad.....
I read this last night, and could not respond, too many tears for a young life lost for me to type a decent response.
Today I just wish to say I hope peace has been found, and to all the young men and women that may be reading this, please talk to anyone before doing something like this.
Tomorrow just may be the day that things get better.
Dave

damn. now he wasn't always one of the brightest fellows on here and all, but this... too much, man.

"All mankind is of one author, and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated...As therefore the bell that rings to a sermon, calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation to come: so this bell calls us all: but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness....No man is an island, entire of itself...any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind; and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee."
John Donne


There, but for the grace of God, go all of us.

Rest in Peace Trevor

Always hate to hear about anything like this. So sad, and senseless.

RIP

Rich

This both saddened and surprised me, as I always thought that Trevor was doing well for himself. I remember his purchasing a couple of Fieros, and that he had a BMW and a sport bike and was the owner of some sunglasses kiosks' for awhile.

He spoke of having a Jeep at one time, a dirt bike which he rode to the fortress in the hills that he thought was an abandoned military installation(which was one of my favorite topics that he posted, and I followed it everyday until the end) several more vehicles, from time to time, and the majority of his posts seemed upbeat. He saw the world through a young man's eyes, clean and uncorrupted before we learn the truth about it when we get older, and his "the word is my playground" attitude always brought a smile to my face.

I checked some of his older posts, and I was surprised to see that he has been a member for a year longer that myself. He had some rather vocal detractors from what I read when he joined in 2001. Still he seemed to be a nice kid with a good heart, which surprised me when I read what he said about taking advantage of people to get what he wanted, and having few friends afterwords.

When I read his myspace page, I could see that he was someone that was in a downward spiral. I would say that I am surprised that his friends did not see what was glaringly apparent, but I am not. People tend not to acknowledge what they do not want to deal with. My friends and family did the same when I was so down after my Mother died, and it is only my own inner-strength that kept me from ending up the same way that Trevor did; the main difference being that I had a few more years under my belt(I was 37 at the time).

I wish that I would have know him better, because I would have at least tried to help him. I noticed one of his statements after one of his posted video's he made the statement "so many times I hung up the phone and just wished someone would listen." I have been there.

I learned after my Mother died what the statement "Laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone". I was surprised at the little support that I had from people in general when Mother died. My friends and family pretty much did not know what to say, or really did not care one or the other(Perhaps both). A forum member told me that my outpouring to them in PM's was interfering with their marriage, and that I had to stop talking to them.

It saddens me that someone can feel so alone that the only way that they see out of the situation is to take their own life. I suspect that some of this was over the loss of his girlfriend, and I hope that everyone knows that there is no woman worth killing yourself over. I really hope that was not the main cause. I pushed a friend of mine up against the wall in the bathroom of one of the local Arby's restaurants and gave him an awakening slap when I found him sobbing in a stall after the end of his marriage. He spoke of not going on with his life. That was my wake-up call to him, and I wish that I could have perhaps given an awakening e-slap to Trevor if that was the underlying reason for all of this.

I suppose that It hits me so hard because he died alone, and I will share a story in closing that I did not share with the forum. We found out January of 2008 that my Father had kidney cancer, just three years after my Mother had died from colon cancer. My Father had the operation, and they said that they did get it all, but there is a small possibility that it may return.

After going through all of that, my Father decided to rent my house that I used to live in before Mother died and I moved back in with him at Mother's request, to a bunch of hoodlums that would do some needed work on the house for free in exchange for a reduction in rent. I had to quickly move my things out, and I ended up digging through a trash pile looking for the hardware for my $3,0000 Whirlpool stainless steel refrigerator because they had come in before they were supposed to to start to clean up and thrown much of my belongings in the trash. That was October 19th, 2008.

October 20th of 2008 found me in the emergency room of the local regional medical center, thinking that I was having a heart attack. I had driven myself there, and asked them to contact my Father, who was at work at the part time job he took after he retired.

It took them awhile to get in touch with him, and for him to make the trip there, and in the meantime I lay on a gurney, with wires hooked up to my chest, while they monitored my heart to make sure that I was not in the early stages of a heart attack. I remember thinking that if I died before my Father arrived, that I would die alone, with no one there with me. I felt alone and abandoned, and, at the time, like no one cared. As it turned out, it was just anxiety, and I was referred to my doctor, who wanted to put me on benzodiazepines, which I refused.

The hoodlums never moved into the house. I told my Father that it was all B.S. but he had to see it to believe it I guess.

This is the way that I imagine that Trevor must have felt, and even though I only knew him from the forum, it deeply saddens me that he felt so abandoned that death was the only exit. The main thing that saddens me is that he died alone.

I pray that he has found the peace that he was obviously seeking, and that he is taking a well-deserved rest.

Rest In Peace, Trevor.

-FF
1986 Fiero 2M6

I had to decide to post this, but I decided to go ahead.

My main reason for posting my story was to let everyone know that I can imagine what Trevor must have gone through, and that I wished that I could have helped him. I appreciate the PM's about my own situation, and have replied to them(lurker owe you a PM, and will get it to you tomorrow.)

I am doing fine now, it had just been a long year with my Father and the cancer, and the accumulation of everything ended up with myself having an anxiety attack. My intention was not to draw attention to myself.

The reason for mt posting is to remember Trevor, and that is why I said that I kind of know where he was coming from when I read his myspace page.

Again, Rest In Peace, Trevor. You will always be remembered here.

-FF
1986 Fiero 2M6

Wow....I almost don't know what to say

There have been countless threads where he chimed in and always had nice things to say (to me). I don't get on PFF as much as I use to and I'm sad that I am just now finding out about this. This world has lost another great person.



RIP Trevor

I'm very saddened by the loss of Trevor - I knew him only through his many entertaining posts here (the previously noted excursion to the "military site" and "street racing crash" threads were both a couple of my favorites).

I also was very touched by his post about the loss of his cat (they really are like family to many of us), as well as his apparent love for his dog.

quote Originally posted by kwagner: Rest in peace, Trevor. I hope wherever you are now is better than where you were. (Edited for different version)

And his statement about "leave out all the rest" got me too... I was just listening to that on my way in to the office this morning. Now I'll always think of Trevor when I hear it.

Rest in Peace Trevor.

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I cant remember the last time that i had posted on here. Trevor was a life long friend that i had lost, i've known him since i was nine years old (now 23) i was wondering if anyone had pictures of him or any of the vehicles he owned i am putting together a slide show for his friends and family. The love and concern that pff members have shown is amazing and comforting.

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quote Originally posted by amadeus_chavez: I cant remember the last time that i had posted on here. Trevor was a life long friend that i had lost, i've known him since i was nine years old (now 23) i was wondering if anyone had pictures of him or any of the vehicles he owned i am putting together a slide show for his friends and family. The love and concern that pff members have shown is amazing and comforting.

Photo page:
http://viewmorepics.myspace...ms&friendID=29846061

Very sad.

I have done several searches of newspaper websites in the state of Washington and have been unable to find an obituary, does anyone know of one?

Steve

well Trevor... I just don't know what to say since i was sooo close to doing the same thing myself recently. I remember reading your posts and laughing at the car accident one... and shedding a tear for your lost feline... Those were unexpected and just unforgettable. You will be missed by more people then you ever realized. I wish you the best in your journey to the unknown and unspoken.


RIP Trevor

quote Originally posted by fierohoho: Very sad. I have done several searches of newspaper websites in the state of Washington and have been unable to find an obituary, does anyone know of one? Steve

In looking for an article to help you, I came across this which just occured yesterday. This is a sad year for the Borden family
http://www.tributes.com/show/Joel-Borden-86439674

no there is not one anywhere his mom doesnt want a funeral or to put it in the paper.

quote Originally posted by amadeus_chavez: Trevor was a life long friend that i had lost, i've known him since i was nine years old (now 23)

I'm very sorry you've lost your life long friend. My best friend died a year ago. I know how much it hurts.

Bump for anyone who might have missed this

**I just wanted to edit this to say that in NO way was this meant to be disrespectful. i know it may come across as I have no business here and I am the horrible ex, ect. But Trevor was a huge part of my life and losing him was a very tragic loss. I wish we could have remained best friends, but sometimes you just can't have one without the other, unfortunately. I don't want to say I felt a sense of entitlement coming on here posting this, I think just from knowing HIM and knowing what this place meant to him. Maybe just from remaining so close to his family, he still feels like a family member to me that I lost. I also know that his mother was not planning a memorial, which is what Ama posted about in his previous post. I was not even sure that he was aware that Trevor finally had one last month. I just wanted to give an update. My apologies.**

Trevor was definitely going through a hard time in his life. I have actually not spoken with him since I broke up with him in 2008 but remain VERY close to this day with his family. His mother will always be like a 2nd mom I do agree that no woman is worth taking your life over. For very personal reasons of course, I left Trevor. I felt until the day he took his life that he was soon going to be ok and. Unfortunately with me leaving him and things going downhill for him, he felt that there was no way out. This was a very tragic loss for all of us. It is nice to see how many people have posted nice things about him. It's a good way to remember him in a good light.

His grandmother actually passed away about 2 months ago. They were both laid to rest in a cemetery in Southern California. The memorial for both of them was held in california with family and friends. Trevor was an only child so this has definitely been a tough time for his mother. His cousins sang the Linkin park song at the memorial Also, his dogs and his cats are in a great home right now and his mother is keeping Indy.

Again, sorry for this random sign on Take care

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I looked at the sig and was like "wth". Then i read the post.

WOW.... :speechless: I think that you are being very disrespectful even showing up here much less using HIS screen name.. RIP Trevor

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Steve
Aka. "SmoothGT"
1987 GT 4.9L~V8~4T60E
(Un.Su.)

First thought.... who bumped this?

Then I saw. Not sure what to think about this.

quote Originally posted by skuzzbomer: First thought.... who bumped this? Then I saw. Not sure what to think about this.

You know it is funny how all of a sudden she shows up posting in this thread from a year ago... I mean what happened for her to ALL OF SUDDEN post NOW.. Also, some of the things she says... why..??

Geez, give her a break.
She states she was going through an old e-mail account and was reminded of this place.
Do you think Pennock`s has actually been on her mind all of this time?
Even though she left him maybe she`s still coming to terms with his death and hoped to get
a little insight into why he did what he did, from another perspective.
But, then again i could be totally wrong, so if that`s the case disregard everything I said.

You know, Maybe we just read it differently. I apologise for my comments if I offended anyone. I had SEVERAL threads w/ trevor. I am still just shocked over this.