OK, no bed yet. >_<
Say you are really depressed. Nothing is going right, and you are thinking about suicide, or worse..
Why not go down to the border, and secure a job as a mule. Pack a car with all the pot you can, and start driving toward wherever it is that they want you to go.
Your depressed, what's the worst that could happen? Don't stop for the Police, let them kill you. If you don't get caught you made a good chunk of money, and all is well. If you get caught you were going to die anyway.
Really going to bed this time.
Brad